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Ross

A new concept in psych

I hit upon the concept pt of Retroactive Interpolation in psychotherapy and my last post represented a trial of it. After that, or as a part of it, comes proactive proliferation of tthe better future. That's where I was at after getting out of Horsham and comng h9m toa dangerous situation here. That's why all … Continue reading A new concept in psych →

extermination

I just figured out the word for what my father wants to do to me. He hates me. And has since the moment I was born. all this, point, everything that's going down, is because of his naive immaturity. He's still the same at 90. He needs to go away for a little while, just … Continue reading extermination →

Judith and Bernard

...we're never a happy couple and my returning from California to bear my son was a nadir for them. They provided us with curtains and bottles and the loan of a bassinet; my living Grandfather in England sent money for a changing table: and my mother provided her blessed presence for a little while. then … Continue reading Judith and Bernard →

Love

I have a saying that I got through my psychotherapy in Florida; I don't know whether he said it to me, well, as I understand things now I do know that therapists and others do talk to us in our heads. He said to me, "Love is not a game or a joke." I said … Continue reading Love →

Johns Hopkins Lawsuit

I see that it is not about me. Well, the Lord gave it to me. It was to teach me about matters of life and death. The malpractice was not so much against me as against the rest of my family. (This is about a stay at the Johns Hopkins Hospital Affective Disorders Unit in … Continue reading Johns Hopkins Lawsuit →

Retiring Blog

A week ago, I abruptly shut down this blog for reasons of my personal safety. There also has been an issue of my personal safety with my NOT blogging as I cannot speak for myself in this fashion to the community any more. But, as it has trickled out I see how the blogging--from the … Continue reading Retiring Blog →

figuring out my life tonight

...and its about romance and marriage and when and where the two collide and when and where they don't. I realized today that all my life I was in a thrall of a romance not even knowing it. It was hidden inside another mainstream college romance that everybody knew about that failed badly, partly because … Continue reading figuring out my life tonight →

screwed

With the press of a spacebar last night, my entire, long email to the nytimes disappeared. They are pretending that it is about protecting Trump, who is speaking tonight, because I compared myself to him. My Advocate Presidency. I said that he desperately wanted to be removed--at one point--just as I did as the undergraduate … Continue reading screwed →

Disconnect

Now i have a new disconnect. For 32 years its been the woman who got rhe better of me on a state hospital ward here in Pennsylvania after i landed here from tbe Boston area un 1996 when i was 24. Now, its tbe coming down here from Mass. I was ib as osych ward … Continue reading Disconnect →